SP.So.s format, take three!

helloooooo Sweet bio-Spiritual bond out there in the verse, 

this was the first episode I've ever deleted the recording of. what you are hearing is the second take of the second draft making it the third. I know this contravenes one of the tenants of the show if it can so be called, but lets be honest, the first recording was a late night push to make a deadline that doesn't exist. I'm not a wage slave and so don't have to but out the dross that said people put out. take my word on this one, the first recording needed to be re-done, so it was. 
also the reading has a bunch of ad lib attempts at humour, feel free to subject yourself to that if you're so inclined. however reading this document is advised as it will make very little sense without the visual. 

some housekeeping: 
first - a decent revision was done so that a new post is necessary in order that it pay heed to the changes that have occurred in me since it was first put to print in January, 2023 of the 'secular' calendar. I've since learned about 2 whole other calendars! that's a new timeline per year folks! still, this remains very much the same as the original document, however, to one with enough time and a Specific Desire that leans towards Esoteric Thought, the changes will be evident. 

second - this is a watered down, and slightly humorous version of concepts much better explained by Realized Masters who, with a Soul refined to a point of what some Mystics call Chaya, Atman, Fravashi. that others still call Consciousness Soul 'I'nfused with Spirit Body. that is to type Spirit Self and Life Spirit Established and Weaving about the 'I' in a Caduceus Pattern. in other words One who has made of themselves a Throne for Divine Spirit to say I Am through Them. One who is in Regular Communication with, Subtle Beings, Amesha Spentas, Members of the Angelic Choir, or whatever term ones culture uses. basically Ones Who approach and Serve SOURCE in a far more direct form that I do. I urge you to seek them out. 
but few people wish to take the time -or have the privilege to take the time- to digest the information, which is highly enigmatic and often codified, which I get. still, there is also something to be said of the value of coming to These Conclusion on ones own -the value of Battles Hard Won. in old times it would have been forbidden for me to even get access to the type of Information that I'm attempting to here disseminate, without years of study and life lived. however, we’ve less and less time to wait for we've allow our sleepy sheep like minds to be corralled into the slaughter houses that are propagandized as the ‘successful’ avenues for time spent in ‘modern’ society. for centuries Holy Ideas were guarded by groups that exist still, for the reason that it was unwise to share them with those who did not come to Deep Understanding through Honed Will. but we’ve little time left to come to term with the TRUTH in its many Forms. our captors have sheered the flock, and, huddled and shivering we wait for the butcher to start slitting! 
I will just quote Rabbi Joseph Lieb Bloch, with the utmost respect: “The Neshamah [3rd of 5 levels of Soul, translating to 'Breath', after which comes Chaya] understands!” this feeling is deep within me and has been from a young age, many a synchronicity and Intuition has confirmed it: Neshamah knows, and Will Receive and translate accordingly, inshALLAH. 
it is a sincere wish that I lead no one astray. as it is a fact that if you are reading this it is up to you to take what resonates (not merely what is pleasant), and leave what doesn't. Discernment is the Key. plus, as the Veil thins, we are Guided more Directly. I mean shit I 'stumbled' on most of this Info with no mean Guidance and turned out mostly fine, lil burnt round the edges but more than edible I'd say. I've the Hands of Providence, I'm firmly convinced (that we all can be), for this Miracle. 

third - (not in SP.So.s., for reference) I don’t even know what I’m talking about, this is an exercise to try and come to terms with something that has baffled the species for millennia, its is an exercise to try and understand our purpose. To comprehend how and why we’re here. To figure out what actions we are to choose or are meant to be doing, I figure, we must go to where we started. A physicist like Max Tegmark would look at the C.M.B. (cosmic microwave background), applying information and theories that seek to trace them back to their source. Using an expensive technique called ‘edumacation’ he and his lot seek to provide answers to those question in the form mathematical equations and formulae, combining them with easier to digest similes and metaphors for general consumption… probably, I dunno I only ever took in the latter forms. For I use a different technique called 'dropping out of high school to think too much'. For what its worth doing so has alleviated much stress in the face of what seem to be interminable obstacles. Which leads to the crux of any matter, its practical application. After all a thought is just a thought until it, married with will, enters this plane through our hands.  
here's a few handy things that came of me going through this process in a very personal way (back to SP.So.s.):  
    • I no longer want to die.
    • a Faith has developed in I, that sees me through to Logical and Emotional realizations about many mysteries and mystical possibilities beyond merely logical and emotional grasping.
    • I'm learning to Love. I care so much about the well being of myself and others that I am willing to pour my life’s limited time into said Well Being, and It alone.
    • I'm learning to thread the line between 'rendering unto ceasar what is ceasars' and the far more important task of developing the I and Accompanying Spirit Self.   
    • I have learned to Love myself. 
    • the leaden fear of admitting and welcoming my ignorance (so much ignorance!) has transmuted into gold nuggets of faith, peace, hilarity, (and much much more) that appear in the sometimes overwhelming face of said ignorance.
    • I’m no longer afraid, (well still a little afraid, but less and less as time washes steadily over me) of being myself and expressing Truth as I see it to be, authentically and with joy. Even though it makes me sound and sometimes feel like a crazy person.
    • I was shown clues to seek out and successfully find other weirdos that I can, and am honoured to break bread with.  
    • I am coming to terms with my mortality, as each breath begins to bring with it the reminder of the inevitability of this life’s end and the joy of release. 
    • I'm beginning to prepare for the 'here, after' not in a hurry to get out, or escape the wheel, or whatever other bypass I might have used in the past. but in the sense that one doesn't jump into a jet and push 8 G's without training. and if thousands of years of personal accounts doesn't amount to evidence that there is a 'here, after' that is very much here and directly after, then I question the bodies that decide what can be considered evidence.

especially when said bodies spend more money on national defense then they do on literally anything else.  

fourth- the grammar used in these posts is weird. maybe you’ve noticed. 
in a nutshell:
‘SP’ stand for SPIRIT. which, like THE ZERO, is but a PLACE HOLDER for THAT which IS beyond even Perception or any language that seeks to explain IT. even though it is the SOURCE of Creation, thus, Perception. IT is that which IS and IS NOT. IT as a concept that is beyond conception, which is hard conceptualize but it must be done in order to discuss these matters. 
‘So’ stands for Soul This is the Intermediary between SOURCE in its PURE FORM and the material aspect (the 's') referred to in this case as body or self. 
'IT' (All Caps) is THAT which IS beyond Totality.
'It' (proper nouns) is that which Encompasses Totality or Experiential Reality, i.e. the borders of our Universe(s) and/or any Exalted Aspect or Being that Exists in Awareness of this Totality.  
and, again, ‘it’ (lower case) is any unrealized, not individuated but individual or single aspect or object of any level of reality. 
every. word. has been placed with this Intention. 

Personalized Intuition, has Guided this structure and I ask you not only to forgive but inform me of any incongruence you may notice, for I am still developing and it is likely that some 'lower Astral' aspects of me have crept in. the core theory, to ride a wheel already invented, is pretty much a concept called Monism or Pantheism which states, in a nutshell: everything is the manifestation of ONENESS or SINGULARITY. a Mystically inclined monotheistic Monist, for instance a Sufi Muslim, might state that Creation is a manifestation of ALLAH, citing the Qur'an as proof and Muhammad (Peace be upon Him) as the Messenger of that proof (Holy Qur'an 57:4-7). A spiritual Monist like certain Eastern Mystics might state that all is SRI KRISHNA, WHO, through The Trimurti iterates Reality, using a number of texts (B.G. 11:15) and stories of Arjuna to bolster that opinion. there are even substance Monists, who will find proof for this within the atom, stating that all atoms are comprised of space (~99.9%) and so we all share and are an expression of a singular substance in that way, using theoretical math as a sort of scripture. a weirdo Monist like myself just kinda feels it out through a mish-mash of study combined with Intuition and Discernment. which manifests as relationships with Guides, Muses, and otherwise ‘Deep Movements’ proven by a lifetime of Experiences, synchronized occurrences, and the confirmations and corroborations of, Primarily, the Scriptures of PROPHETS and their Disciples. added to by well published, read, and studied members of our Species, wiser than I. to name a few: Steiner, Huxley, Wilson, Socrates (Plato), Tolstoy, Rilke, Hesse etc. etc! 

you might be asking yourself right about meow, why go though the trouble, if it ain't broke don't fix it right. well that just seems lazy to me, preventative maintenance used to be the standard. "wait for it to break" sounds like a kid who inherited a fortune from daddy going to financial advisors to make decisions that effect millions of people for the sole reason of wanting to guarantee the resources needed to buy and fuel a super car parked on a yacht on its way to a private island full of lizard pizza babies or whatever qanon is on about now a days. I honestly don't know. 

the answer seems to lie in being able to Think about Core Aspects of Reality. how do we speak about A THING that is at once THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE and a compost heap, or a babies laugh, or a decomposing baby in a compost heap, without 50 million words to first establish context? we augment the orthography! why do we use the grammar we use, the way we use it? because that’s what and how we’ve been told to use it! that’s it, no body of word nerds calling the shots. its weird for english speaking people with all their almost authoritarian obsession with standardization. we don’t even have an orthographic comity to decide what goes where in this crazy language! f’reel, look it up, we’re all free ballin’. its just a bunch of unspoken agreements of what looks weird and what doesn’t. sounds like codependent behavior to me. you can miss me with that, I prefer to think for myself. I've got a machete and I'm happy beating through the brush. this one time I decided to use Intuition over a G.I.S. mapping software to guide me off trail in what theoretically would have got me down the mountain sooner. it didn't. it got me super wet and kind of lost and thinking: "why think for yourself, like, ever when tech does a way better job?" then as I started back up the mountain I 'stumbled' upon a huge cache of aaa- aa gem grade smokey quarts just chillin' on the surface. must have been 400-600 dollars worth just there. the Intuition chimed right in, would I take it all, dig around and look for more? or only take what I thought was fair and get back to the commitments that brought me there in the first place? I chose the latter option, and marked the spots g.p.s. points down in case I needed more. life has more in store for us if we think for ourselves. I felt stupid walking away from the those stones with less than 50 bucks in my pockets to return to a job that paid a little more than wage slave rates. looking back I don't regret a thing. plus, turns out I was closer to the path then I thought.  
but don't take my word for it. leave the path behind and search yourself, there are Gems, more actually, Shards of LIGHT, just there passed the patch of thriving devils club that is your mommy trauma. I'm projecting a bit.

without further whatever that all was... ing, lets begin with:   

Love and hope for a Brighter Understanding of the only Myth we have any real Influence on, The Self,
N

now you might be saying:
alright then mr. vanlife granola crystals why are there so many things if its all ONE THING? 

“I see Your infinite form in every direction, with countless arms, stomachs, faces, and eyes. O Lord of the universe, whose form is the universe itself, I do not see in You any beginning, middle, or end. 
             -B.G.11:16

"...so we, who are many, are one body in Messiah and everyone parts of another."          
           -Romans 12:5 (T.L.V.)

"you are the universe experiencing itself"
           -A. Watts

it wouldn’t be very fun if you were viscerally aware that you are in a sense the person you were having sex with, would it? wouldn't be much of challenge to Love your neighbor as yourself if you were acutely aware that you are your neighbor. how could you want to bully or claim ownership over 'your' child if you knew you were that child… a vacation would become SPACE, as Space, moving through space. no sunny beach, no Guru Person helping you untie the knot that is your Soul, no death, no life. just ONE. so my guess based on that is: for the Fun of it, I mean picture it. OMNIPOTENT BEING, THE ONLY THING EXISTING, only a COPY can BE, else IT wouldn’t OMNIS. so IT Separates a Piece of ITSELF that IT may experience ITSELF -via Willed Ignorance- as itself, through Itself. so how then? well, the Mystery Schools say: a series of Occultations or Concealments Occur which result in the Choir of Angels, Amesha Spentas, Sephirot, Densifying Layers of Experiential Reality Etc. so that the INFINITY doesn’t blow the Enfeebled minds of ITS self. 

The Lotus that grows from the mud,
fed by The Sun
would burn in the FIRE
that Sustains it
         -Anon

just as an aside there are far more steps and other Traditions go deeper into Its explanation, but here it is from the very rudimentary angle of material Science. keeping in mind this is not Scientism, a dogma like any other that claims this to be the one and only way to view Creation. nor do I have a good grasp of the events of creation, even from the limited standpoint of simple materialistic observation. think that was the last disclaimer? guess again.
SOURCE: Big Bang-> Plank Epoch--> Grand Unification Epoch---> 
Grand Inflationary Epoch----> Cosmic Furnace, Stars, Cooling, Combining/Bonding, Organic Compounds---------> us. :)  gunna table this part for now and stick to just Three Levels or States.

ummm ok, whatever, lets gloss over the inaccuracies and take it as a flawed literary device. still two issues to solve, arise. why does life suck from time to time, wouldn’t SELF want whats most pleasant for self!? well the short answer here is that it would be super boring if there were no challenges, you ever play vidya gamez with cheats? doesn’t breaking the game by sapping the fun related to obstacles mean less play-ability in the long run? in addition there are Spiritual considerations relating to 'the fall' that needn't be entered into here. suffice to say we are sleeping in the bed we've made... its a bed of nails. rusty nails. 

“...But now let’s have a surprise, let’s have a dream which isn’t under control, where something is gonna happen to me that I don’t know what it's gonna be." 
            -A. Watts

glossing over the incredible amount of privilege it takes for Alan to be able to say something like that to an eager audience of also privileged people... or how much it takes for me to have the luxury of typing this out now. 
are we farm animals? are we armed drones attached to teens flying mindlessly into battle to secure trade routes? no, we have Agency, Discernment. We Are Free to choose to act Freely. yet, we have been programmed with the rules of this society. which aren't all silly or harmful. in fact, some of them make sense, like get hit by cars bad, traffic lights good. or don’t dispose of your dead babies in the compost (40-60% of that baby is going to landfill anyway). and some rules don’t, instead losing ground upon scrutiny, like: 
    • make huge financial decisions at the age of 18-20 that will effect your whole life before your brain (the part that governs long term planning, emotional regulation, risk assessment, and much much more) has fully developed. 
    • its more important to be liked and financially well resourced than to be Free.  
    • if you're feeling the weight of inequality shut up and work harder you pussy. 
    • relying on people who you have no personal connection with to grow your coffee and ship your bananas is normal. 
    • buying a house on land you will never own is normal. 
    • science is right all the time every time so quit asking! 
    • Spirituality is fun and all but its not a science no matter how well it adheres to and actually is the foundation of the 'scientific principles'. 
    • proper nouns at the beginning of sentences always for no actually agreed upon ‘good’ reason. 

yes its weird to question conventions that do not seem broken, which leads to the next quote: 

“When the going gets weird, the weird turn pro.” 
                -H. Thomson

“The Reason why Mythic Statements invariably lead to word-Magic is that the Archetype possess a Numinous Anatomy and has a Psychic Life of its own.”
                  -Carl Jung

“... hiding inside the twenty six characters and a handful of punctuation marks. These letters and words, when placed in the right order, would conjure all manner of exotic beasts and people from the shadows, would reveal the motives and minds of insects and of cats. They were spells, spelled with words to make worlds, waiting for me…”
                    -Neil Gaiman

"...[read this one for yourself]..."
                   - Sefpher Yezirah (Chap. 1 Sec. 1)

"...[this one too]..."
                    -Gospel of John (1:1-5)

I'm feeling weird copy pasting Scripture, suffice to say Words are not just meaningless materialistic vibrations of air. there is a Reason the Hindi word Prana means Breath and Energy. there is a Reason the words for the 1st and 3rd (5 being the most Refined) for Soul in Hebrew, Nefesh and Neshamah, both roughly translate to Breath. words are the most audible breath, they are air Enlivened. They are Sacred, if only we, Free Beings, Choose to View and Use them as Such.  
when we realize that the maps of old no longer served for the fact that they were inaccurately measured, thus didn’t represent the geographical features properly, we hire cartographers to go and make more maps with better tools, designed by more refined minds, and better tech. well the words we use and the grammar we cloth them in are the chief technology developed by the Species, Communication has Earned us our Edge and is so Sacred that we ascribed It to Gods like Thoth. words are like addresses to Concepts in the Mental Body, and they are currently seen -by crazy people like myself- to lead only to burned and bombed out concepts long since left to rot. the east Berlin of the Mind might be fine for someone grinding out an overpriced mortgage with a dead end job, who has kids to feed. but I am a childless hippy with only my Well Being and a secured rent increase of 3.5% per annum to focus on. so I haz time to makes my own rulez. needless to say I hopped the wall, you gunna follow me over? or are you gunna load that mg42 and literarily mow me down? choice is yours. 

“Sometimes science is more art then science Morty, lotta people don’t get that.”
                    -Rick Sanchez se 1. ep. 6

back to the thing:  
Monism is the attempted UNIFIED FIELD Theory of metaphysics. and it cuts out a lot of the leg work of splitting this hair, mathing that chair, and getting a doctorate to lecture to other people with doctorates about why you’re so great for spending 10+ years and life changing amounts of money to earn a sheet of paper. some materialists or dogmatic monotheists might disagree and that’s just fine. please do leave your comments as this idea -as all should be- is open to contention. however, anything duality posits is not, by my finding, anywhere close to as Fun as Monism. personally speaking, that is a major metric in regards to how I choose to live my life and which thoughts enter the arena of scrutiny. 
I may be wrong! I can admit that with joy even, but I’m not miserable -which I was when restricting myself to only that which is observable by the 5 senses alone- and that’s not nothing! plus, until all the facts are in, quite frankly typing, its an asinine act of hubris for anyone, including nobel prize winners of all fields, to assert that they are absolutely right about anything. Life is a constantly Evolving Theory, a Metaphor, a Language for to describe Itself. if you say that is unscientific, you’re mostly correct! yay cookies for you! but the scientific method is based first on discovery, then description through repeated experimental findings. I don’t recall ‘high roading’ or put downs to be part of it, though I may be wrong, I don’t practice edumacation, I just dabble in it. 
regardless, for one to think they are absolutely right they must first say that there is nothing left to discover and that friends and allies, makes for a boring ass cookie. enjoy it. it is after all, a cookie none the less cookie-esque, even though its abundance of lack keeps it mired in old cookie doctrines packed with refined sugars and toxic dyes that emulate, but never really come close to Fun Things. like Raw Cane Sugar, Dark Chocolate Chips, and Rainbow Arrays of Auric Colours, i.e Sprinkles, or those Little Candy Dinosaurs. instead its a dry butter flour disk. which is totally fine, they’re big in Britain.
also there's no milk. 
if for no other reason consider the Metaphysical with more than just a cursory glance. let It Guide you of page to an Experiential Recipe. at least think for yourself, let 'Intuition as a Spiritual Path' (great book, lemme know if you read it) enter into your lexicon, just as an experiment, worse comes to worse you can burn it if zee fascists take over, it'll make you look cool.

hopefully by now you’ve a picture not too terribly painted of this orthographic model, anything can be Exalted, Raised to a Position of Reverence, provided the Context of Metaphysical Paths to DIVINITY are Invoked. 
if you haven’t this picture, either I’m doing a poor job or this article is not for you. if you’re scoffing then defo you need to leave for your own sake, like why are you putting yourself through this?!

“being present is a hard sell to someone who’s head is up their ass”
                     -Anon.

“Everybody acts out a myth, but very few people know what their myth is. And you should know what your myth is because it might be a tragedy and maybe you don’t want it to be.”
                     -Carl Jung

why does any of this matter? well we need something to work towards, I would Love to say that human Beings, being the dynamic bio-Spiritual creatures that we are can find healthy, sustainable outlets for our Energy, our Will, a Work life balance. but too few of us seem to be able to. some pine for the days of old, for simpler times when life had fewer options, some look to the future at a society who has surgically removed its head from its own ass hole. no one wants to look at now -I get it, smells like ass- to look Within. even though It seems to be our only Option and One we are for better or worse indulging (think love and light new age by pass on one side and hardcore military budget particle accelerator on the other), in a sleepy way, already. I think this is because we have been programmed to think Inner Spaces are a lie, an idle past time meant only for children. that Imagination is but a passing fancy after the days of youth. but one of the Inner Spaces here mentioned are where you go when you dream, 1/3 of life is spent there. and sleep is anything but idle, repairs to ripped muscles and bruised psyches have been attributed to R.E.M. cycles by lots of well performed experiments, whats more thousands of years of tradition and experimentation has proven how crucial dream awareness is to waking consciousness by people in varying societal stages. in addition, the Imagination is where every great idea starts! these are very real data sets that we argue or laugh away as a species, to our own detriment. these last sentences aren't even that Woo, they are very reasonable even for the most materialistically minded person. what harm can there be in trying for yourself? in making a decision a Free Being to come to your own conclusions based on your own research?
we have divorced ourselves from all the Wonder and reduced everything to quanta, to sense based realities that use the asshole of academia to shit on the more Esoterically minded Wisdom Schools that, if they were being honest, are the cultural and ideological basis for their own schools and doctrines. at this point though, its quite plain to see, that the ‘science’ being peddled has become rigidly dogmatic scientism, hardening into fancy words for 'procedural bias'. just as the conventions around language have calcified and clearly do not serve to accurately relay the Very Real Experience that are being had, and have been Felt, by so many. 
regardless, I'm always keen to remember, that relative to Subtle Beings aforementioned most of us acting with no more than a prideful ignorance must appear as no more than monkeys, powerless and horny. the materialists try to fight this fact with better tools used to sharpen the aim of intercontinental ballistic sticks, and ever more destructive psychological attacks on the strange outsider monkeys. ones who look peacefully for More than what is readily presented, through means that come naturally to them vie Intuition and a variety of other 'Whispers' from the Astral. to tap into Realms Internal, developing Spiritual Senses (the Eyes to See and Ears to Hear) that bring into Focus Heavenly Hosts that Are and have Been long since before Saturn was even around (as we know it) to be called the Lord of Time.
 
this system of grammar (or any system that wishes to be expressed through the Unique I in you) can be viewed as a New Lens through which to view Reality, or just a thought experiment to aid the emergence of new patterns of cognition. at the end of the day though, where it Matters is matter. what We say, what We do, and what We think and feel. New Paradigms are brought to Life by Us and Through Us, that is what is so special about the Aware Folk. These don’t come to Be until We Live Our Truth. Its not an easier life, Its actually harder. to Be Love to see Friend and Foe, as SELF. for even if they are opposed to you in flesh, They are Akin to you In SPIRIT. 
do we dare to try and Live That?

at this point, any way you can achieve either or both of these, is Magick.  

I hope that doesn’t seem like absolute wash! but am fine if it does. 
hit me up, lemme know. 

With Love,
N