mission statement

hello Sweet Reader, direct if you will your little Light Eaters and oracular scillia to this why don’t ya!

this is to be a statement stating why exactly it is that I'm stating what it is that I'm stating.

this is, like all things in this highly fluid and increasingly permeable Dimension, subject to change.

first, you'll notice some curious grammar. check out this post on the SP.So.s. format, an orthographic take that seeks to express the many levels of Divine Iteration inherent in Creation without the thousands of words that, even if correctly employed, would fall short. for to use language to express that which is beyond language is... well.. silly. but we don't have much in the way of options in this regard, at present. if you are telepathic please let me know because all these words are becoming a bit of schlep. if you don't want to read that then this will have to do: SOURCE of Sources, SOURCES, sources. that is to type: CREATOR Created and is creation.

here is a sentence not in SP.So.s: The format attempts to save the many words that are needed to differentiate -for the sake of sharing theories that discuss a reality both created and composing (of seemingly disparate parts) entirely of said Creator.

now back to the SP.So.s. format: weather the author means a being in the wage slave sense, a Being in the Realized sense, BEING in the PUREST SENSE, i.e. BEYOND CONCEPTION YET ALL THINGS FROM ANT TO INFINITY THAT WHEN DESCRIBED IS MISSED YET CAN BE FELT. catch my drift? the format is full of holes and wholes and grasps neither but its what I got for now. there is a more in depth one that uses part cAptial And lower case that's still and the works and honestly why bother at this point. just do the work and Feel it out for yourself. then get back to me if you find Things. if however, you find THE THING then one wonders how much of 'you' there will be to get back to me through. have not doubt this all fits into Monotheism. for ONE is All.

the quotes have been changed to reflect this format, however, the words have not. the former is certainly a liberty taken, for which I ask that you forgo judgment, the latter however, would be an aberration. if you simply ignore the change in grammar you shall have the original, for no words have been changed. again, you can look them up for yourself and do the work of coming to your own conclusions. I hope you will.

more on that later.

so why then...

well ever since I was much younger, I've wanted to be of service. to what and to whom I couldn't then say, however over the decades I've been able to dial it in, ever so slightly. the long and short of the answer is SOURCE. there are other words for THAT, words I will omit due to their bastardization by political organizations that have used them, for centuries, as tools of coercion. I'll just hope that you know the ones I mean. in case you're unsure I will just type this: THE DIVINE Is Beyond All Conception, Yet IT Is Within all things. this, THE DIVINE, is, basically, Monism, or Pantheism. more accurately I've landed on Panentheism, but the difference, from our limited, enSouled meat based existence, is not so relevant. the 'en' is a monumental hair-split that goes beyond what is already so far beyond common conception, which is exactly the kind of conception I have and am offering.

so how does one Serve what is ALL and Every? how does an ant Learn from a Star, Itself Formed and Informed by INFINITY?

THAT which Uttered Creation into Existence?

WHO was THE WORD and Who was with the word? (Jhon 1:1)

WHO did not beget and was not begotten? and there is none comparable..." (Al-Ikhlas 112:3-4...)

EN SOPH, (15a) THE DIVINE, THE SELF-EXISTENT INFINITE BEGIN, WITHOUT LIKENESS or REFLECTION, THE INCOMPREHENSIBLE, THE UNKNOWABLE ONE... (Zohar Gen 1:1...)

well the hints are all there, and Here. IT seems to have left Bread Crumbs all about Creation that lead to IT. there are many false paths as well, that have been left to beguile to confuse, to redirect. beware the sweet smell of the light bringers sticky traps. the tricky bit seems to be that IT Is not only ALL THAT IT Is, but ALL That IT is not. wrap your head around that!

or don't, many greater than I have tried and failed the tattered remains of their Astral Forms and the Words of them that have Succeeded stand as warnings should you decide to undertake such a task. Its an Answer left to very few, Who've Earned and Are Chosen. and I, Sweet Friends, feel as if I am only just working towards 'Earning'. if you've not the Discernment to know this about me via these writings then please read no further. go far from this page lest I be given the opportunity to lead you astray! for I will surely pay for that in the Bardo. let this disclaimer serve as my sole defense: I make no claim to your Sovereignty! I'll type you something about me: an unillumined person sits here at this laptop, sharing Concepts that have yet to be fully Understood. I make no claim to Mastery, or even Apprenticeship into the Great Mysteries. read the following at your own discretion, practice Discernment. I offer no advice! this is as much an experiment as it is an offering. regardless of your readiness you're better off reading Scripture and learning to communicate with the Better Angels of your Nature, who sit in your Court, awaiting your 'Nightly Return'. I might also suggest R. Steiner. I do this for Love alone. not to sway you, or teach you what you need only look Within to find. I type again, I make no claim to your Sovereignty, nor do I offer in roads that are better built by Spirit and Masters in touch with the 'Life of the Spirit'.

more on that later.

*I know I typed that before but these two things will be addressed in the actual mission statement. please bare with me.*

but enough of that Prophetic Rhetoric (propheteric?) we were typing about Service.

eventually I was able to accept that while I likely wouldn't get Answers, per se, I could still do something in this world to, you know, leave it a lil better than I found it. to add instead of parasitically subtract as everyone who claimed to care about me was doing, and trying to get me, for my own good they said, to do. keep in mind I support a system of parasites and so, by extension, am still one. after all I pay taxes and those dollars, those that are not stolen, are used to rape, to oppress, to steal, to bypass, by profiteers and robber barons. and, you know, what isn't eaten up by a top heavy bureaucracy bursting at the seams with 'middle management', to pay for roads and parks and shit like that. personally I would gladly give up the benefits to the gdp that come from the dark aspects of the collective kitty's use. shouldering instead the farming, medicinal, housing, and various other resource gathering and distributive aspects that comprise a population of Individual's, social responsibilities. locally and in open, honest cooperation with the economic and political aspects balanced by the type of Autonomy necessary for a healthy social organism to flourish. I'm thinking about the book "towards a Threefold Society" by Rudolph Steiner. most of us know these things, few of us are honest about them, fewer still are willing to meet them, but how?! an angsty teenage version of myself armed with surplus army gear and the views of agrarian reform and peasant revolt would use terms like petite bourgeois and revolución. now I see that the problem is not merely material, there are many Fields upon which many Cards are at Play. reality check after reality check after Metaphysical Reality check led to some very necessary Humbling and Rebalancing.

so...

here we are years later. I'm eventually able to stifle my pride and accept that one can as much fix a sick society that one is living in and contributing to as much as one can move a carpet one is standing on. whats more.. one can spin ones wheels for lifetimes thinking about THINGS that ARE Beyond thought. and coming up with material solutions for challenges that are beyond the scope of material planes. all the while slaves, many of them children, mine and process the materials for our cell phones and war machines, which evolve while I and many other good willed folk think about what a quagmire this has and is becoming. political bodies enter into demonic orgies with economic forces and subjugate any who are willing to pay to watch and play, to their will. poisoning all that they can get their scaly claws on. indeed, it is that very desire to Know, a Natural Light filled desire, that is co-opted by forces unseen who wield the light as a cudgel to the fledgling Soul. darkened Light used not to spur one to action, to solve or at least attempt a solution to the many, Astral ailments that visit this Species, but to paralyze one in thought, so those very ailments can fester and flow into the materialized puss of the leper's sores. gross right? I thought so too. but I do not condemn, for if Paul refused to Judge, if Christ full of LOVE, forgave, than I must too. that typed meek does not mean weak. so I move to Understand the ailment, to attempt to Heal it from not only the physical side, with bandages and balms, but the Spiritual, the Concealed Space with Prayer and Mediation. Thinking, Feeling and Willing. to do so as best as I am able, which means Aligning with Divinity, again, as best as I am able. this does not mean settling, bypassing, leaving my open palms idle for the darkness to play with. this means always pushing to be more Authentic, Empathetic, Humble, Steadfast, Just, Graceful, Etc. Etc. I'm not here to blab about a bunch of platitudes, not today anyway. on this day I attempt this mission statement, so that you, The Sweet Soul reading now, whenever now happens to be for you, can at least have a shot at resonating with my most sincere weirdness. not craziness, mind, nor madness, this is a grounded approach. it means volunteering, getting your hands dirty, looking at the 3 fingers that point back as the one arrogantly faces forwards. because all the while the children toil in the bowls of the crust for rare earth, their little arms and malleable psyches ideally suited for mistreatment, unaffected by my only buying used. all the while major water bottlers deplete 100's of billions of gallons of water every year, leaving thirsty communities completely unawares that I collect greywater for toilet flushing. every day some person gets to remember their dead family completely unawares that people across the planet march for them while paying the taxes that support their demise and ignoring the very real challenges that reside in their own cities, for they stem from our own hearts and minds. somewhere there is a company that makes antifa flags, hoping fascism never comes to an end.

so what the fuck do I do then? start making 'fuck druteau' stickers standing in front of parliament getting people to honk if their horny for procrastination and the illusion of change? do I not even do that?

well, I started to realize that there is a very real Energetic game being played here, and we are the pawns, but only because we have been told that we are the pawns. we, like crabs in a bucket, clamber over one another to get to the top, thinking we are weak. but the Crab is an ancient symbol of Heartfelt Strength. we've been duped, Sweet Friends to thinking we are merely our physical bottom dwelling bodies. lies! for in us is Soul, and Attached to that Soul is I Am, Spirit. The Kingdom of Heaven is there. now I know some of the skeptics may rally and say that is the biggest by pass of all! and rightly so, as it has been employed as one for a solid couple millennia now, culminating, it would seem, in the 'love and lighter's' of the new age group.

but read me out here:

messages of Love are Revolutionary, as in they spur Change, the Turning (Revolving) of the Wheel.

Love, mind, not the merely dense qualities oft associated with love; lust, infatuation, eroticism, co-dependence, blindness, etc. or the simply lofty love qualities: nurturing, self care, defense, affection, admiration, adoration, etc. not just sexy flexy new age love and light in stretchy asana pants wearing lingo, with flowers on. nor is it or a petulant attempt at wound licking and machiavellian defense budgets and standing for anthems and light beer on game day. Its hard Work. its sacrifice. its honesty. Christ became LOVE and let us hang him on a Cross for it before he forgave us all. Buddha turned down all that Mara had to offer to end suffering. Zarathustra removed 'the clothing' of his body to meet AHURA MAZDA and forgave the man who stabbed him in the back. *I still need to polish up on those texts.

“to Love is good, too: Love being difficult. For one human being to Love another: that is perhaps the Most Difficult of all our tasks, the Ultimate, the last Test and Proof, the Work for which all other work is but preparation.”

-R.M. Rilke

Love as in Sacrifice, as in something almost inhuman. Powerful enough to shed collective weights from entire sections of sentience at the same time Propelling them towards Esoteric Evolution that we have yet to grasp.

I may not, for many a life anyways, get to that point, but I will strive for that level of Perfection, for in doing so I will attain a certain level of Excellence. I will not go easy on myself but I will not be cruel to myself. with the lessons, the shimmering Gold that comes of the lead of my being, I will pay for this Excellence. then I will take it and give it away so that I may be lighter, more Free to float, as an Individual that cleaves not to the paltry play things of Maya, but clings only to the Swaying Robes of Greater Beings, Who have been with us long before the 'Sun'. Beings who Reflected their Warmth into the Seeds of our Being, Nourishing them. Honouring the True Mother and Father. Who Serve the ONE.

I have tried and failed several times in this (and many others I'm sure) Life. but with each trauma shed, with each 'enemy', not merely forgiven but Loved and appreciated for the mirror they were, for reflecting my own inner 'enemy', I get an infinitesimal amount closer to ONE Who I AM not apart from. that is to type, I get closer to that Great Remembering some of the Wisdom Schools speak of. the more of us that do that work, the closer we all get. this again does not mean simply sitting and meditating, or writing this... stuff (ugh blog feels so hoaky) whatever its called nowadays. it means striking off, saying the difficult thing, showing up for those who annoy, attack, and arouse angst, though not from a high horse with a megaphone to project our 'greatness' (thinking Matthew 6:2-7 here) but quietly, diligently through things like this post? think you're a nice person? try Praying for those who actively oppose you, to find Peace. it. is. hard. but, gradually, InshAllah, the influence will grow and more and more people can be directed. not here to these silly little offerings, but to the ONE and the Mighty Choirs who have inspired these words -if I can be so bold as to assume for I am no clairvoyant- for they are the Sources who Serve the SOURCE of Sources.

now that I have scarred away any person who does not meet the weird quota necessary for these words to land I can get to the actual mission statement, which is, if you can believe it, quite simple.

To Inspire you to look within, to Forge a sense of Freedom, to Individuate that you may figure out what all the above means to you, Sweet Soul. these words are a result of decades of Tailoring (comprising mostly of mistakes and complete do-overs) that have resulted in a 'garment of Thought' that serves not only as an Armor, but a kinda snazzy outfit. it fits every curve of I that me is currently aware of and I never tires in communicating to me which areas are not the right Colour, Shape, Material, Size, and so on. the Desire in my Heart of hearts is that you learn to leave this page and these words. that you find the I in you, the Spirit as it Manifests you, and seek to Serve Divinity there, not here. to be inspired not to take the dimensions of my suit and apply them to your very different body with very different... Covenants, Missions, and Dimensions. we are different people, with different departments, and different allotments (I'm thinking Romans 12:4-8). I can not live your life, nor do I have the Super-sensible abilities to see your Inner Being and Guide you accurately. my only hope is that, with Discernment and the correct Thinking, Feeling Willing, combo that you can take only what you Need from this, no more and no less. I'm no Guru, no Master, I'm just another ant on the hill trying to Align my little and Feelers not to the pheromones of dead pharaohs who still reign from the shadows where false queens reside; but the Will Supernal. my mission here is that you can forget this little mission of mine, for so in Love have you become, so Dedicated to Serving SOURCE, that I become but another drop in an Ocean of US.

so much Love to you Sweet Soul,

N